My Struggles

I grew up in a very loving home, went to a good school, played sports and had a bunch of friends. On the outside I was completely normal, but no one knew the turmoil I struggled with on the inside. As I started to turn into a young woman my loving home started to fall apart; my parents were drinking a lot and fighting and my sister was dealing with emotional issues and it caused a lot of trouble. I felt like an outsider and couldn't wait to get away to and go to college. I started to deal with the turmoil of my home life by ignoring it and pretending it didn't exist instead focusing on my weight and body image. All I could think of day and night was how much I weighed. I would often skip meals, use laxatives and eat a very limited diet. I worked out 2-3 times a day including sports practices. I was constantly obsessed with my weight. The number on the scale defined me in every moment and aspect of my life.

As I went on to college and entered into the working world the obsession never stopped. I had just came to the conclusion: In order to eat I had to workout. I didn't care what I ate, over eating wasn't my issue...I under ate and over worked out. I would beat my body up trying to get it to comply with where I thought it should be. I would run endless miles and push my body to new limits trying all kinds of sports and activities. But no matter how hard I worked or how great everyone else thought I looked...I was never satisfied.

The obsession and the worry started to eat me alive. I was so tired of working so hard and not seeing the results I wanted. I was so tired of worrying about my weight and my body all of the time. I actually took a break. After I had my second baby I really slowed down on taking care of myself. I was consumed with the kids and started to do the opposite of what I had done all those years...now I wasn't working out at all and I wasn't caring what I ate. I remember having a cold and going to change the baby and I was out of breath! Out of breath from taking care of the kids? No way that was it. I felt so horrible in that moment. I knew I was not taking care of myself if something so simple could make me feel so weak.

For months I had been seeing people getting amazing results using the 21 Fix Program. I had been curious, but never took the plunge. After that day I decided I had nothing to loose and everything, but maybe a few bucks and a few pounds. It was the best decision I ever made.I started to think of it as not just buying a workout program, but as investing in my health and in myself. I feel like you are either going to spend money somewhere either now taking preventative health actions or in the future at the doctors paying for bad health to be restored. I decided I wanted to pay now instead of later so I started to get back on track and taking my health into my control in a positive and healthy way. I started eating a balanced diet and only worked out once a day. And because I followed the program I saw results. I was amazed.

Having workout programs at my disposal that I KNOW will get me results gives me the peace that I don't have to worry about how long I workout for or how many times a day. Having a healthy meal replacement shake, Shakeology and following a meal plan that I know I can implement on a daily basis, helps me eat breakfast daily and stay focused on healthy eating without obsessing and worrying about a number on the scale.

I now weigh less than I have in years.But more importantly,  I am actually happy with my body. For the first time in a long time, maybe really for the first time ever, when I look in the mirror I can see I am getting stronger. When I look in the mirror... I like what I see. I am happy and comfortable in my own skin. And that feeling is priceless. 

The freedom I have found and look forward to continuing to find through Beach Body has been life changing. I had such an amazing experience with my first program I went on to to become a Beach Body Coach and am now blessed to help others get onto a healthy path as well. I am able to work from home and be with my kids while helping others and getting paid for it! I am so excited for what the future holds and bringing my dreams to reality! Invest in your health, invest in your wealth!