I think I can, I think I can...

"... by his wounds we are healed. "

Isaiah 53:5

   It feels like ever since we have decided to get married the enemy is out to get us. And as we can tell from the current Federal Court ruling the enemy especially wants to ruin marriages between a Christian man and women. 

Well I have news for the enemy: I don't care how much he tries to stop this wedding. IT WILL NOT HAPPEN. 

I am soo excited to get to a point in my life where I will be living in the covenant of God. For the first time in YEARS I will NOT be living in sin!!! Hallelujah! 

But the enemy is screaming and freaking out trying to stop Nick and I any way he can. This is what has happened since we have decided to get married just two months ago:

My contract job ended sooner than expected.

My car was broke down for a month.

Nick and I have gotten into a few big fights that made us both think twice.

His aunt suggested we wait a year to get married. (the enemy will even work through those that love you to prevent a union from being blessed)

Nick's job has been inconsistent and money has been super tight. We are considering if he should stay at this company or not.

On top of it all - let's make a long story short - Nick had Knee surgery about 2 years ago, he got addicted pills and things got bad...he finally got off the pills by taking what a doctor suggested which was Suboxone, well the problem with Suboxone is it is addicting too and after taking that for a year he had to ween himself off of that too! Well praise God he finally did, but it has not been without its side effects of Nick feeling tired and sick and me having to try to be patient and understanding as he went through it. 

Then on top of that I got really sick this past weekend and was diagnosed with an ear infection and strep throat!

It has been a rough road to say the least. "But surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows." Isaiah 53:4 So I am standing firm on the word of the Lord. 

I don't care what anyone says or thinks - on August 15, 2015 Nick and I are getting married! And not because we have the best love story, but because we both really love God and have been through so much together and we want our union blessed by God. And you know that the only want to defeat the enemy is with the power of Jesus. 

"Love covers a multitude of sin." Proverbs 10:12

I share this post today because no one is perfectly healthy all the time and it can be so easy to become defeated when you are at your weakest. But just as God says, when we are weak He is strong. Right now as we walk out these next 30 days until our wedding I am aware that the enemy will attack us, but I will not stop planning. I will not cancel or postpone this wedding, because at the end of the day the only thing that really matters to me is that I am living right with God and doing what He has commanded me to do. 

Taking care of ourselves and being healthy is more than eating right and exercising. It is the love of God and love for God that keeps us healthy. When you love someone so much you will listen and obey them no matter how uncomfortable it may seem. God will command us to do things that push us out of our comfort zone, that force us to look within, and that will create an everlasting change inside of us. He asks us to love the unlovable, he asks us to turn the other cheek when we are scorned, he tells us to forgive others as many times as it takes, he commands us to treat our bodies as a temple, to pay attention to our thoughts and to shine our light for the world to see.

What God asks us to do as Christians is never easy. But it is always worth it.   

What is God asking you to do today that scares you?

Do it anyway

Have faith in God that no matter what it will all work out for the good of those that love Him