Stinkin' Thinkin'

Part of being a Fit Mommy for me includes being happy in all areas of my life. When one area of my life dominates over another area I find I become disgruntled and unhappy. I have a few passions in my life: Loving and serving the Lord, home -schooling and interacting with my children, and then I also love being active and staying fit. 

I keep finding that my two passions for fitness and homeschooling keep bumping heads. It is like there is just not enough time in a day for both. At this stage both of my kids are still young, my son is 6 1/2 and my daughter isn't even two yet. Teaching them is very hands on and interactive. 

Truthfully I LOVE teaching them, planning and coming up with ideas, crafts and field trips. I loose track of time and I feel like Homeschooling is a great opportunity to see the Holy Spirit in action.

But then there is this part of me that feels like Homeschooling my kids is just NOT enough. I need to be more and do more.  

So I share my passion and love for fitness in hopes to help others and maybe make a little bit of money. (Because no matter how hard I try I just feel better about myself if I am bringing in some money). But the harder I try to make a business out of it, the more I push it the more unhappy it makes me. It seems to bear no fruit and then I become frustrated, disgruntled and hard on myself. 

I miss my kids and feel like they are watching too much TV.

I find myself constantly torn. 

I will never stop working out it is part of my DNA,

But so are my children and they are only young once....

As the new school year approaches it has me thinking about our schedule and where I am going to need to make changes. If I already feel overwhelmed (I guess planning a wedding is also  taking up a lot of time :P) then I am going to have to let some things go. 

And what I have to let go of is my EGO!

So what if I never make any money as an online trainer?

What if the most important job I have to homeschool my kids? 

And I miss out on that because I am focused on money?

The Bible says you cannot serve two masters, you cannot serve Both God and Money.

There is nothing wrong with trying to make money and working. But I can not base my worth, status or value on the amount of money I make. My value, worth and status are found in the fact that I am a daughter of Christ. 

That alone is all I need and really is all that will satisfy me. 

Being fit and healthy is not just about working out and eating right. It is about the whole package: Mind, Body, Soul and Spirit. I don't want my kids to see me stressing about my body image or working out or how much money I make. I want them to see that exercise and healthy eating are a natural way of life, and if you miss a day of exercise it is ok. I want them see me trusting in God no matter how much money we have or don't have.  I don't want to get so sidetracked by the world's standards that I forget to live by God's standards!

Because when I live by the world's standards that is when  I become unhappy. And right now in my life while my kids are young the truth is I should focus on them and enjoy them because before I know it they will be grown and out of the house...I better enjoy that while I can and QUIT obsessing and thinking about things that don't really matter. 

Dear Heavenly Father ,

Today Lord I turn my thoughts over to you knowing your thoughts are higher than my thoughts and your ways are higher than my ways. I pray Lord that I am obedient to you with raising the children you have so blessed me with. I thank you Lord for the processing of healing and growing! I love you ! In Jesus name I pray, Amen,